A Cycle Ended
a little life update
It was a difficult road and lost became my only way out of the realms where I touched grass and my feet bore no sin, my heart could hear truth that reined as the stars light up the sky but my way was dark and harm happened to me and from me and of me; I cried. I crumbled and died more times than felt right, felt wrong I vied for a song but no birds did land, the red one could not see me, I commanded to the gods and to the men I made god was always in the flowers, the bees that bit them, how could I of known? How could I of known my wayward days would end and cycles would always be worth bowing to-- with one.
It’s been three months today since I embraced my move to southwest Virginia, a place that has always whispered the essence of home to my heart. My life now is different, steeped in tranquility and a spaciousness that is both grounding and liberating. I moved away from what no longer nourished my soul, gracefully accepting the endings, and here I have blossomed. I have opened myself to the gentle touch of serenity.
These days, serenity is embodied by the land that cradles me. This is the profound shift. Nature here is abundant, a tapestry of life and renewal. Each day, my soles and soul connect with the raw, untamed earth. I breathe in the scent of the mountains, and the cold, cleansing waters wash over me, purifying my spirit. The animals here, with their unguarded presence, have woven themselves into my heart, teaching me the beauty of the cycles of life and death.
Flowers bloom in every corner, a constant reminder of the delicate dance of existence. I feel akin to these blossoms, partaking in the sacred rhythm of blooming, wilting, withering, and sowing the seeds of what’s to come.
I stand almost one and a half years free from the chains of addiction. My breaths now are full, expansive, and holy, each one a testament to my journey and my resilience. I am deeply grateful—for my guides, the teachers, and the communities that have helped me stitch my soul back together. I am whole again, and in this wholeness, I find profound peace.